A bOOkSeLLeR's liFe

I want a Korean boyfriend!

Hahahaha. I’m serious about the subject ok. Two things fuel this sudden wish of mine. Firstly, I was accompanying my mom last night, watching a Korean boy band concert, TVXQ. I was inspired by their slick dance moves and decent enough vocals. Of course, having good looks is a bonus! :P

Secondly, I met a cute Korean guy while out with the girls on Friday night. Most of you might not know this but I’ve a soft spot for guys with small eyes. Haha. This is the truth! Doubt it not. Anyway, he seems like a nice guy. He is here for a holiday and he’s based in Sydney, Australia. Needless to say, it’s pointless to pursue this any further. He’s gonna be in Singapore tomorrow morning onwards for a week. Then it’s back home to Australia. :(

Here's a pic of the cute Korean boy I met. :P

Next year, die die also must go Sydney! Hahaha.

It’s been a quiet weekend. I’ve missed my first ever Indian wedding this morning because I was working late through the night. Before any of you start imagining horror scenarios of me slogging it off alone in the office at the wee hours of the morning, I was working at home.

Proof reading my annual Christmas catalogue took me quite a while, as I had to ensure that the blurbs, book covers and prices are correct. Have to send them out to Singapore and Australia for viewing by today. Sigh……

I feel very very exhausted now. Not just with work but with life as well. :(

5ive

aargh! i got tagged by Foo and rite after he got home too.

so here it is.

5 Things In Our Bag:

• wallet
• handphone
• keys
• lip balm
• comb

5 Things In Our Wallet:

• IC
• cash
• credit card transaction slips
• credit cards
• ATM cards

5 Things We Like Most In Our Room:

• my doggie, sam :) (soft toy lar)
• my bed
• my study/work desk
• the wall (i painted it myself! a nice shade of blue)
• the dressing table (all my war paint's there!)

5 Things We’d Like To Try:

• scuba diving
• bungee jumping
• sky diving
• travel around the world
• be a food critique (haha!)

5 Things We’re Doing Now:

• thinking how to answer this damn thing
• typing it out
• working, OT in fact :(
• eating a slice of mooncake to stave off hunger pangs
• fantasising about my (possible) bali trip next january :)

i believe!

i MUST believe that good things come to those who wait.

i must....

the truth hurts

however, it sets us free. hehe. sometimes ppl wonder y am i so adamant about chasing after the truth, even though it'll hurt when u know the outcome. well, firstly, i'm persistent and inquisitive by nature. secondly, i like to be in the know. that puts me in control.

for me, i feel that the truth is usually elusive. it's usually easier to lie ur way out of an uneasy situation or avoid the topic altogether. telling the truth n accepting it takes guts. n i like ppl with guts. i like to think of myself as a girl with guts too. :P

having said that, i've finally gotten the answer to all my unanswered questions. it was painful but well worth it. at least i'm in a position to make informed decisions.

i gotta thank this person though. for being so transparent n tolerant with me. it's been great spending time with u. i enjoyed every minute of it n all the memories we've created will remain treasured in my heart forever. :)

i thank u sincerely, from the bottom of my heart. i wish u well...

my secret crush

well, now that i'm writing about it here, i guess it's not so secret anymore eh? :P

there's this guy that i spotted in college. the moment i laid eyes on him, i was intrigued. i wanted to know this person. i want to understand wat makes him tick, wat're his hobbies, wat're his likes n dislikes, his quirks n habits, etc. call it weird but i had a major crush on him the moment i saw him.

this crush lasted for a whole year! throughout that year, i nvr had a chance to talk to him. it was alwiz me admiring him from afar. i got help from a friend who picked the same major as him. he enrolled me into acct club so that i could've a chance to know him.

as it turns out, that was his final sem. he graduated not long after n i still didnt get to know him. :( i oso found out he got himself a gf. of cos i was heartbroken n disappointed... but it wasnt the suicidal kinda heartbreak la.

all of us lost touch with each other after a few yrs. suddenly i bumped into my buddy n we wondered where'd my crush go to? so i called out of the blue, hoping he'll remember me although we didnt know each other well. he neither answered my calls nor replied my sms....

few days later, he called back. he's in saudi arabia! wat a very pleasant surprise. i was ecstatic to hear from him. :D we made plans to catch up when he's back and now he's back for a week.

now, i'm trying to live by the motto carpe diem. i dont wanna die tmr and then realise that i've unfinished matters ie. a few things that i should've said or done. so i confessed to him that i had a major crush on him for a whole year in college. he's very cool bout the whole thing, i gotta give him credit for that. he asked if i'm ok with the whole thing now, if i'm affected by the matter.

my answer to u is this:

u're someone very special to me. i dunno why but i felt a connection immediately when i saw u. u know i dont believe in love/feelings at first sight. u're the only person who's ever had this effect on me. :) if u're wondering whether i still have feelings for u, i do. how can i forget someone whom i've been secretly admiring for a whole year?

i know we hardly know each other. we dont understand even a sliver of each other's characters. honestly, i do hope that i'll be given a chance to know u better. but, i oso know that distance n timing is a big hindrance for now. therefore, i will not pursue this any further.

u'll alwiz be someone very special to me. u've been very understanding, considerate, sweet n also supportive of me during my challenging moments. tks for ur sympathetic ear when i needed it most. i really do appreciate it.

i wish u all the best with ur life ahead. that u'll be happy n healthy alwiz. u're constantly in my thoughts n know that, u have a friend in me...